BIBLICAL POINTS OF REFERENCE:
"For His anger is but for a moment, His favor is for life; weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning."
"Though He brings grief, He will show compassion, so great is His unfailing love."
You want to know what makes me mad? Failing. I hate failing. It doesn't matter what it is that I've failed at - it just makes me mad.
Take, for example, the amount of times I've failed to eat healthy. Or all the times I failed to get a good grade on an assignment or test. Or when I've failed to remember all that I have to do during the day. And when all those kind of things happen at the same time, then I've failed to keep myself calm.
So today, when I got off of work and went to go to the church lounge on campus, my only resounding thought was, "I need Jesus." I preceded straight to the chapel, sat down in a pew, and just stared up at the crucifix hanging behind the alter. And I did absolutely nothing else - I just sat there.
There are times where going to see Jesus has the most stress-relieving affect on me; I'm there and I'm releasing all the worries and concerns that have me riled up, and it's wonderful because then I can get back to my day in peace.
But there are other times where going to see Jesus is more about facing the reality of your actions than it is about calming your mind. And that's what today was about: Facing the reality of my mental state, and how my actions reflect that mental state.
I'm working on it Lord, I prayed. I'm working on calming myself down so that I don't take my anger out on others. I'm working on accepting my failures as chances to redeem myself and start over. And I'm working on seeking God first and foremost, whether I'm upset or happy.
There isn't really a lesson or challenge that goes with this article. There is just an opportunity to see that others are working on being the best version of themselves too - day by day.
Your Laughing Sister,