I didn't give it to God beforehand.
BIBLICAL POINT OF REFERENCE:
"He therefore let you be afflicted with hunger, and then fed you with manna, a food unknown to you and your ancestors, so you might know that it is not by bread alone that people live, but by all that comes forth from the mouth of the LORD."
~Deuteronomy 8:3
I didn’t give it to God beforehand. I didn’t pray for Him to see me through and for His Will to become my own. I didn’t allow Him to comfort me or be there for me as my supporter. I didn’t even think about Him beforehand.
Yesterday I presented to a small group of coworkers, and while this presentation was not a big deal, I was super nervous to give it, and super nervous about the results. I had practiced and prepared, and I was ready, but still very anxious about it all. I told myself to calm down, to breathe deeply, and to remember that I have given several presentations before, so this would be a piece of cake.
So I went into that room, I stood up, and I gave that presentation.
And it went pretty well. I’m actually very happy with the results, and I have no complaints about it.
But as I climbed into bed last night, I realized that I had forgotten to give it all to God: the good, the bad, the anxiety, and the gratitude. I had completely forgotten to give all the glory to Him. I hadn’t even paid attention to Him—like, at all.
How did I forget that? How could I have possibly forgotten that every good thing comes from Him? That He is the one who sees me through times of high stress and blessed relief? That He is the one to turn to at all times?
I know how easy it can be to only rely on yourself. It’s hard to trust others to get things done, or to trust others to prioritize projects and activities that you find important. It’s so much easier to get things done yourself, because at least then, only you can be held accountable. We think that if we stick to our own methods, we will be more efficient and have little consequence for it.
We have to realize that when we tread the waters of life alone, we won’t find lasting peace or happiness. Sure, things may get done, but I doubt you’ll be happier, wiser, or more open to other perspectives. Not to mention, you are not God. You can’t do it all by yourself. That’s why the Lord is there, all the time, no matter what. Unfortunately, that’s what we seem to pay the least amount of attention to, and I think we need to change that.
So let’s start in prayer. Pray with me, my sisters:
Lord, I am sorry for not including you in my day more.
I know that you are the one who gives me life, love, and happiness.
From now on, I will strive to give you all the pain, sorrow, peace, and glory,
And I will not forget that it was You who created me.
Thank you for my wins and my losses, and thank you for Your eternal Love.
Your Laughing Sister,
Callahan
