BIBLICAL POINT OF REFERENCE:
"Do not be conquered by evil but conquer evil with good."
I'm not one to really get angry at God. He's God after all - there's a reason for what he throws at me and I may never know why. That's just the mentality I grew up with: That my tiny, little human brain cannot possibly comprehend God's never-ending love and reasoning for my difficulties in life.
Well, I hate to say it, but lately, I've been a bit angry at God. It started a couple months ago, a few weeks after I returned home from Europe. I began experiencing some pretty painful stomach issues, something that had been a problem in the past, but never something that had deflated my motivation to keep pushing through.
Except this time it did - this time around, I have had no motivation to stay hopeful in God.
Having just returned from the summer trip of a lifetime, maybe I was already a bit depressed and unhappy about leaving the adventure and wonder of it all behind. Returning to work and school happened extremely quickly afterward, so maybe I was already exhausted and unprepared to move forward with the next events in life. And maybe the persistence of these stomach issues throughout the last few months have pushed me harder than I thought, and so maybe I've ended up getting angry at God for everything without realizing it.
Let me ask you all something: Is it okay to be angry at God? Is it okay to blame him for the troubles you're having and the challenges you face?
I can't answer those questions. I wish I could. I wish there was a way to make the physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual pain we all experience go away. But there is no easy cure for that.
Here's what there is: A nice, warm day at the end of summer. The sound of laughter. A chance to catch up with a friend you haven't seen in a while. A relaxing nap. A day where you feel a little better than the day before. People who know and love you supporting you every step of the way. And a loving God who is with you no matter how angry you are with him.
Being angry at God doesn't make him go away. It makes him try harder to reach you. And maybe that's the motivation I've been looking for.
Your Laughing Sister,
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